They don’t know…
They don’t know how shattered my heart is.
They don’t know how I fight in silence every single night.
They don’t know how many chances I gave him.
How many times I believed.
How every time I hoped, “This time, it will be different.”
I held on to the hope that everything would get better.
But every time, I crashed into the same disappointment.
You taught me to be patient.
And I waited—patiently.
It didn’t happen.
It didn’t work.
It’s still not working.
I loved deeply.
So deeply, I loved for the both of us.
Do you know what it feels like to love for two people?
It burns.
It carves through your soul.
And yet, you go on loving… stubbornly.
Maybe the mistake was in waiting.
Because sometimes, waiting doesn’t bring the right thing.
Every day, I fade a little more—without even noticing.
My smile slowly withers.
Can you see that?
Do you see… and still not care?
My burden doesn’t lighten my thoughts.
It wraps around my throat like a rope.
And you keep adding weight.
The life you shaped for me…
sadly, this is it.
Leaving it all behind—
it’s both thrilling and terrifying.
But take that step.
Step across the threshold.
Save yourself from this aching soul.
Pia/
Baresoul Journal 